The future

The future is such an interesting concept

To someone like me,

The future is something

Just out of reach.

Always so simple

But an impossible dream.

Impossible to someone who doesn’t want to be.

Trying to be perfect

But nothing works

Trying to be productive

But everything hurts.

Days like this I can hardly breathe,

tears blur visions of a future I can hardly see.

Broken and hopeless,

I've lost sight of focus,

And today I just don't want to be

The hurt

The pain

The guilt

The shame

It eats away at me

It's cuz my pain is something you can't see physically

Yes i have theses scars

Put on my arm

Put there by me,

Buts there's also scars

Around my heart

That you just can't see.

All because I don’t want to be.

Until I break these chains in me,

I will walk in vain till it's the death of me.

Or I’ll walk with hope that’s there is a future where I’m free.

When it comes to the future we can just wait and see.

What it holds for someone,

Who doesn’t want to be.