The Feeling I Avoided

I stand there, eyes closed, blocking out the music and all the people around.

For the first time in a while, my head has no sound.

Feeling only the heavy base of my chest and the warmth of the lights.

I left through the door. Now it is really quiet. I'm alone standing here in the light of the night.

I do this every weekend. I found a way to block it all out.

Moving on is hard to do, but what is serving us by being out and about?

But life isn't getting better because I need to move forward.

Always around happy people and I'm like this? Well, that's just awkward.

Let's start fresh tomorrow. I swear it'll be different. No more blocking out. I need to do this.

I need to realise I'm fine by myself. Not every girl needs a prince charmings kiss.

Wake up and take a shower, maybe do some meditation.

Only I can drag myself out of this mess, but some people are not ready for that conversation.

I'm drinking water now and finally eating better. For the first time in forever, I have no signs of anaemia.

I've blocked every single toxic person from Social media

This is my time to finally shine after that rain turned into a storm.

I'm feeling happy. I really hope and pray this is my new norm.