The Epistolary Poem Challenge

Dear Moaneesha ,

You're going to save this. Even beyond this day, remember this day and save it; never allow your files and memory uploads of your "to do's" be so intrusive, allowing that old filing cabinet to devour it.

Remember I was always there and never dis-in-tuned by those unsuccessful foolish goals. Your daily empowering bright light you awoke with today; will slowly diminish by days end. It is I who helped you distribute all that ill-minded stupidity. I was the illusion of the very disillusions of why you could not and would not.

I am the driver behind why you never grew, who entertained your thoughts and robbed your will to fight against anyone or anything. Delightful expired taste of your little frail pales of this slimy glue, you call meal replacement. I find it funny there honey. You're often so left blue you did not even see the clues.

You see this mirror, yeah what mirror. I remember the day I told you to take it down. I still stand firm that no one can ever love such a clown with an undesirable frown, fuck your upside down. Stand up and dust off that blown out buttoned Blouse or curtain of top you wear that has nothing but good old food stains. I have taken away from you, you! You belong to me, you will never become free. I can almost guarantee. So shush up and get into that bathroom stall and eat your lunch. Just like you did in junior high in 1999.

You're so long gone from the bold girl you once were, your aura so bright you could almost imagine what Kind of superpowers she might possess at night. Now all that's left is this ashamed and undesirable fat old cow. It was taken away along with your dignity. Within the first hour of my arrival. How can you sit there all day and complain of bad knees? Geez.

Give me the keys you don't need; common now get into the back seat, please. You think I'll let you walk home alone. If you think that you are allowed to, better get that head straight and acknowledge who's your master, I guess I missed you! My little disaster. I am not going to accept that. Guess what, baby access denied. You're not getting into our bed, with that smile.

So forget that next lecture or any future ambitions. Don't bother exercising those meaty thighs. Just come home with me, so it could be just me and you, my boo.

You see, you will never leave me. You need me.

We may have taken a short break, but guess who's coming home with the strawberry shortcake. Just as you like it, with extra whip cream and double the layers of this store's distinctly irresistible creme filling. Don't worry I won't even put this on your emotional tab of food stacked "to be filed" Grocery receipts. Don't even think of cheating on me. forget the pile of food billings, don't bother thinking about the shillings you could've been making; or the weight you could have lost.

Babe you're getting older than Quaker state. You can offer State farms new freebie's because the public doesn't care to see the dimples and wrinkles sprinkled on that huge ugly pimple beneath your chin aligned right by your first long chin whisker. I'm offering you free of charge my hard earned skills, and all these dark thoughts. Let's regain the cost you lost yet another week's gains on the Fattest Loser.

You know what butter cup takes the toll, you can't get up off your rump because of all those lumps, you ain't going to be taken serious with Velcro straps on those shoes, fuck look at that outdated Fanny pack that I thought was another roll. Did I just witness that pack become absorbed, hey wait now it seems it resurfaced as a hunchback. I feel sorry for those daytime clients who have to see you under all this lighting. Those engorged thighs that took away all the comfort of walking, because you're now chafing and looks like those Chins can use a little razor blading. Rigorously rattled with those humongous butt cheeks. Settle down your making this earth quiver and quake, forget that dinner date and let's just go home and eat cake. Finish off the leftovers of yesterday because you're not good enough, it's getting late and your inner female reproduction clock is ticking.

I will not have it, I have forgiven you once already. Don't go trying to throw me away, you can't get better than me. You never will, you don't have the fight or will to procreate or lose all the regrets of all those yesterdays when you don't even recognize your the only one who's despised to even try looking into your own eyes.

Baby remember the first day we met, I will never forget it. It was like pure true destiny. In an instant we were meant to be. I know I can be mean at times; it's only because I love you and it's true I am the only one who truly looks out for you. You see I came to your rescue after that night at prom when that football player took off your layers and laid you to bed in the back of his dad's truck box of that classic 1967 Chevy.

He bore your naked body for all to see, little did you know that there was the whole school's team, their girlfriends laughing and pointing. You shouted and then I heard screaming. Next thing you know there were spot lights that shone from here to the farthest that the eyes can see, you looked at me in disgust as I shriveled down in pure shame, I never thought my first time would become the biggest fame in a shame game.

You never went out again or left the room for all those years, who was there right beside you. You think I will ever let that happen to you, that's why I'm in charge and not you. You see it took all these years to regain and take away all those pains, we hold a strong bond, life long nights alone, at home. This smiling BS makes you look ugly! stop, let's just go home babe. I am sorry I even said that last mean thing about your getting older, I feel like it's getting darker and colder. I am uncertain now, you promised us not to do this to us again, please baby I got you and you got me. It's us against the world. Don't you remember!

Babe, please! I am begging you on my knees. DON'T, don't you dare answer that TEXT. Quit smiling now! Man, common! "BABY" relax please baby, I am begging.. Why aren't you listening to me! Fuck it your going to regret this now and forever, I'm taking this cake and throwing it off the C.N. tower. You freaking coward.

You will never separate from me. I'll always be there, don't bother thinking you will ever part from me because we are intertwined, married if you must, you can try to be happy but deep down inside there will always be me, you and us!

Sincerely,

P.T.S.D.