The Earth Changes Like Me

My path is a path

only I could carry.

I was born abandoned.

But I received a love

that was bigger than any beginning.

My childhood was not a wound —

it was a gift.

Everything I lost the first time

came back to me the second time —

bigger, clearer, more beautiful.

Because my life has taught me one thing:

if a door closes,

behind it is a hallway

leading to a larger space.

The First Time Broke Me

The first time broke me.

The second time shaped me.

The first time I believed

it was the only way.

When they left me,

I thought it was the end.

But it was the beginning of a love

that taught me what home means.

The first time broke me — because I didn’t know.

The second time shaped me — because now I know.

For me, the second time doesn’t just bring a new opportunity.

It brings a new me.

The Third Time: My Choice

The third time, I didn’t wait

for someone to leave me —

I chose who stays.

I didn’t wait to be rejected —

I knocked on doors

that were bigger than my fear.

The first time was destiny.

The second time was a lesson.

The third time — me.

The Fourth Time: Peace

The fourth time — I no longer chase.

I do not prove. I do not explain.

If they don’t see me,

I don’t raise my voice.

I just go where

my value is seen.

The fourth time, I am not stronger

because I am harder.

I am stronger

because I am calm.

The Fifth Time: Changing the Rules

The fifth time I realized —

not every battle is mine.

Not every call

is worth my answer.

And that is why I choose silence

when others choose noise.

The fifth time is not louder.

It is higher.

And there, there is no need

for proving.

The Sixth Time: Just Living

The sixth time — I no longer count.

I don’t measure how much I’ve grown.

I don’t go back to check how broken I was.

I just live.

I do what I love.

I love without fear.

I leave without noise.

I stay without doubt.

The sixth time is not a new version of me.

It is me —

without proving,

without fighting,

without announcement.

Just me.

Originally published on Medium.