The Door That Learned My Name

There is a door in my forehead,

not carved by hands,

but by years that refused to pass quietly—

by questions I swallowed whole,

by truths I held like coals in my mouth

until they cooled into something I could speak.

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It glows red.

Not with fire,

but with all the words I never let escape,

the arguments I folded into paper cranes,

the rage I taught to sit, to wait,

to understand that volume is not the same as truth.

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I do not open it for everyone.

Some knock with noise—

demanding answers before asking questions.

Some knock with hunger—

wanting to feed on what they find.

Some knock with borrowed truths—

trying to give me back what was never mine.

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But behind this door,

memories stand like unfinished sentences,

their endings suspended in the red light—

not broken,

just waiting for the right breath

to carry them into meaning.

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My eyes are shadowed,

not because I refuse to see,

but because I've learned

that seeing everything at once

is a burden even light cannot carry.

Sometimes clarity requires darkness first.

━━━

The face you see is calm,

almost still—

as if silence itself

has learned how to breathe,

how to hold space

without collapsing into it.

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I was taught that restraint is strength,

that not every storm

needs a sky to announce it,

that some battles are won

in the pause between heartbeats,

in the decision to feel everything

and say only what matters.

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So I learned to hold my questions

like prayer beads—

counting, not shouting,

trusting that meaning arrives

not in the loudest voice

but in the most honest one.

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The red is not danger.

It is awareness.

It is the moment before truth speaks

without raising its voice,

the color of blood remembering

it was always meant to stay inside,

to power the heart,

not prove it exists.

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This door does not promise answers.

It promises honesty—

the kind that knows

some questions live longer than their solutions,

that patience is not passive,

that choosing when to speak

is as important as choosing what to say.

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The stars watch through my silence tonight.

They understand what it means

to burn without shouting,

to hold light

in a body that is mostly empty space,

to be seen

without begging to be noticed.

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And sometimes,

remaining human—

with all our unspoken doors,

our calibrated silences,

our red-lit thresholds—

is the bravest entry

we will ever make

into a world that mistakes noise for presence,

reaction for response,

and words for wisdom.

━━━

I stand here, neither open nor closed,

but learning—

learning that the door

that knows your name

is the one you've earned the right to enter,

and that some truths

are worth the weight of silence

it takes to hold them.