THE DEVIL WITHIN

They say I am a gods sent and inside me there is a angel within

Though if you ask me there is something evil deep down that smiles at my life with a grin

Yes they say I am gorgeous and Yes they say I am smart

Though in my head they have not seen the other part

Some say I am vile and some say I am evil and wicked

It makes me happy that they see the evil inside me and willing to admit it

Yes I believe in god and yes I have faith in him

Though the demon inside me controls me with its dark sins

I scream out loud and cry for saving

Though the flames inside my soul is continuously blazing

Memories that keep me in the dark resurfaces in my mind

The darkness inside me covers the happy memories leaving me blind

The only way is isolation keeping myself trapped in my own thoughts

Every time I try to explain myself I can´t seem to get my point across

They say I make no sense and they look at me funny

When I try to better myself

They take my hopes and passion from me

I become a walking fireball

I start to hate and hold a grudge

When I began to show my true colors

Everyone even my entire family began to judge

I don´t cry when someone dies

except I´m very calm

I rather not shed a tear

Its better off to be that way

than have death bring you fear

I don´t know where I´m going whether its heaven or hell

When someone dies not even the relatives know how to tell

I´m happy for what I was created with both good and bad

Its good to have both personalities

Than just to be mad

That is who I am and I am special on my own

I am both strong and hard as stone

Whether I go to heaven or to hell

I want everyone to know I did it on my own

And If I go to either heaven or hell

I still will be goddess of both thrones

so that´s me I´m an angel with the devil within

Nice to meet you I´m your worse nightmare

Just reading this poem you have already did a sin