The Demons Inside

Every time something starts to go good, she gets it snatched from her. Her demons are always her downfall. She has been through hell and back so much that she wishes she could make all the pain go away. She had countless nights of crying herself to sleep and running away to hide in alleys or behind trees in open parks. She has even skipped school to hide away. And on a few occasions, she tried to take her own life, but for some reason she couldn't fully bring herself to do it. From the pain she feels. She has cut herself before to "help" feel better. The first time she sliced into her delicate skin and saw the scarlet beads started to form and felt her mind and body go numb, she knew that this was the start of her very first drug. As time went on she began to numb herself more and more. From staying up at night to hiding away during the day just to be numb. Soon she found marijuana and cut back on the self-harm. She did everything she could to smoke a little weed although, at times, it didn't seem to help as much as cutting, but it did it's job when she needed it to. She was also very promiscuous and that was what she hated the most about herself because she felt as though it wasn't her fault because she was molested pretty much all her life. Not many people knew that though, not until she was about 17. By then it was too late to fix the damage that had already been done. She hopes that one day she can be at peace with herself but she fears that it may never happen because the fears that nobody will truly accept everything about her. But only time will tell.