The ABC's Of Me Myself And I

Agony will be the death of me

Breaking the loose hold of my sanity

Cleverness will get me nowhere

Dying is my only escape

Excited I am not, for the end of me is terrifying

Fear grips hold whenever I get close

Go into the black, avoid the light

How it controls me

I have no say in myself, or my fate

Just a watcher, a fool, a beast

Kill me please, if you care at all

Loosen my chains, set me free

My mind is broken, thoughts are disarray

Nothing makes sense anymore

Oasis in my head, tricks me away from the light

Pursue me through the depths of this place and save me

Quivering and alone is what I am

Restless ego, and narcissistic daydreams

Showering me with regret and tears

Tears from my past, dragging me through the dark

Unless you can bring me out,

Valor will mean nothing

Waste of space, useless piece of shit

Xing the spots where I became myself

Young me would be beside herself

Zero success, just madness haunting the mad

Yards of my depression keep me in

Xenophobia covets my dreams

Wells of misery go deep, hidden from my view

Victory requires a sacrifice I am unwilling to make

Uniqueness perverses me, clouding my judgement

Truth will set me free, but I am unwilling

Scared of the consequences

Rewards aren’t enough for my twisted psyche

Queen Artemis has far too nice a ring to it

Postering in life won’t leave me happy in death

Obstinate to the obvious

No sense will save me

My mind has been made up

Losing myself in the pursuit of being right

Kindness is weakness to me now

Jailed within my own head

It’s the safest place for me

Half of me cares too much, and the other doesn’t at all

God, am I weak

Foolishly praying to one I don’t believe in

Exceptions can’t be made to me

Depression fuels my narcissism

Cold hands of fate point me in the worst directions

Braving through it, even the agony

Agony will be the death of me