Teri

oh wait it’s you,

the absolute stunner of my heart

Leaping into the haphazard depths of my beating knocker with precision

Oh no, it’s the stalker, we’re at a stalemate

She’s concocting a fantasy that we’re together when I never would want her near me

Not with a twenty foot pole, but she broke the pole in half

She’s blasting my comedy into a corner of space to be seen by aliens that would never understand but

Maybe would throw me a few sympathy chuckles

But you understand me Teri,

You are the best part of my world

As I shied away from the door that was slammed tight by panic,

Your beauty was challenging my place in the universe

In polite realms of love,

I couldn’t resist your presence as I opened the book of my questioning sexuality & identity

And yet I blocked you in my shame

The last bit of twisted trauma that translated into self-destruction

Eating out of the palm of my stalker’s fiery hand

Bleeding into my stomach

“Who hurt you?” My the stalker said to me

Was it a man?

I love in my grief, trembling in a throbbing voice of silence

I hold your hand and my voice slips back into my head and throat

as we sing away those cold, aching

terrible blues.