Tangled

I am scared of loosing, mind fighting my body

Scared of showing this side of me daily

I cry inside when I see Ace going through the same things

I hurt when I see Favemike thinking of quiting

I miss my little sister, I want to see her smile again

I want to see Zyzy saying Naruto chants again

Lots of talks I need to have with lots of people in my life

But I just rather save me the stress, bury it deep inside

I survived this once, saved by the bell

If it comes again, I don't think I could resist the spell

I am crucified daily, not by people, but by myself

Hanged in thoughts, choking and yelling for help

I am trying so hard to lessen damage but this is causing me more stress

I feel so tangled in this, caught in my own web

Trying to find the balance, am I not a Libra man?

I guess the stars in my sky don't want to align

I look around with everyone wearing a smile

Fake or not, I look up to heaven and ask "where is mine?"

I always tried to find a balance and it is tiring

Lots of "what if" scenarios in my head, conspiring

Pops said he's proud of me, wonder if he means it

Mother said I'm her pride, wonder if knows her Lion is wounded

I hate being put in a box made up of decisions

Here in my mind, trying to get it quarantined.

I need to pile up my negatives, hold them in bundles

And maybe somehow I would feel a bit untangled