Talk

Talk. A simple word. Yet, it has an endless depth of emotions compressed in it. I always wanted to have a talk. To open up myself well and true, without holding back a single word. Sometimes, I feel honoured that people trust me to open about themselves. But, did it feel the same for me when I wanted to?

No, is not an answer to the question I asked myself. Truth being I don't know what the answer is, or might be. These lil talks we have, it has an unsaid impact on us. You never can't truly empathise with someone until you really have been there in their shoes. People tell me to open up, to have that talk and feel relieved. Question is, will I really be relieved?

We all got that weird feeling in our head that tell us whom to open up with. Sometimes it may be our best decision, sometimes not, or even worse than that. We try our best not to dwell upon it, and sometimes forget. But it comes back haunting us at our unexpected moments, true ain't it?

We try to spread positivity, only to forget the harsh truth of reality. We try to empathise with people going through hardships, but end up sympathising for them for a few days, weeks at the most, and move on. We all are in misconceptualized society which idealises that there is a specific time limit to move on. I know, we all know that times have changed. We have no time to sit back and talk about it. But what if we really had time? What if the time spent was actually worth it?

But thats not our problem is it?

Listen. You don't need to have severe hardships to 'qualify' as a person with stress or depression or whatever terms they have coined for it. If you feel that you are in pain, that you feel low, and you don't know why, it's okay. You don't need the judgement of others to know if you are at crossroads. And to find the right person of your choice to open up with, to have that talk? That, is where you truly are tested, not by the people, not by you, but by patience and perseverance.

Some keep their secrets for a long time, but eventually open up. The time you meet a person of your worthiness, the time when you feel peace with them, the time when both your brain and heart unite to say 'TALK'. Thats when you realise, that it is time you had that TALK.

Yes, you waited for the time to arrive. You still might be waiting for the time to arrive. Or you couldn't hold yourself with all that pain and you let it off through your closed ones. Fine, it's not a problem. If it went well and good, then its a blessing. If It went the other way, its a blessing in disguise.

Either way, you will have that TALK, you will open up, you will feel at peace. When the time arrives, you will realise, you were not just key part of the talk, you were the VOICE to it.

Still searching,