t.h.e. deliberations

you tell me

i am alive

see

monkey me see monkey you

i listen, i be, i speak different things

ask me why i will not live right

i say only, "because."

this is what left is

i know the cold comes for me bigly

ask you if you do

served on a platter

silver spoon in one hand

and the other may or may not be dead or alive at the same time if left unobserved for any amount of time

it eats me with your cake

that is as alive

as i am

this is no life

all things limited

i pose no threat and for that i am the greatest one

simultaneous charge and surrender

for and away from both love and the grave

above and below at the same time

this space in between

this too is mine

the life here

whole in being broken

embellished flaws

make for better small talks

in short and long order to forget the apocalypse

conversations for the intermission

put my head into it

stuck up his

dynamics

looking assured for discretion

from higher grounds

humbled to a bitter pulp

we argued eggs and chickens

then i do not do to him

as he stitched me up with sequins

ask first

which comes first

the import and trade of first

experiences

universal sponsorship

my yang and his yin

we mix and switch

reversed positions from time to time

we burn bridges

for each other.

for all lovers and the unloved

for hatred and its fears

for the grateful and forgotten

it does not go without saying if you say such things

so it goes, cookie crumbles

at capacity for fucks got or given

this is a bout with telling me about your indifference for me while you pretend to be a paradox of a contradiction

this is how to learn how

now

hit it hard

deep internal war and pleasure

wonder why.

wonder.

then ponder it.

whhy.

devout to that, unavailable

so easy to pine over

and pineapples

under chaotic influences

signed, "t.h.e. deliberations"