Sunshine and Rain

I am sunshine and I am rain

Deep down I hide all of this pain

Masking my thoughts and emotions

Comes in waves like the ocean

High tides low tides

the inner child in me cries

Pleading, needing to be let out

Ego protecting having more than just doubt

I’ve never been properly loved

Others thoughts and opinions I’ve let them just shove

I just wanna be loving and kind

To my childhood I wish I could rewind

Show others the pain and hurt they inflicted

Being mature at a young age is not being gifted

A lot of the times I didn’t get a choice

At such a young age I lost my own inner voice

While it is true two things at a time can be the same

Parents did the best they could, they also caused pain

Hiding masking you never see my own rain