Sunflowers

Drawing flowers on my wall

one for each happy moment I have

moments that grow rarer these days

like the light of life was fading from me

But sometimes I can see the light again

then I capture it with a yellow spot

a shiny bright sunflower on my wall

reminding me that are good days, too

The beauty of the world

hidden in all these little things

like a flower growing between the asphalt

a little color in between all the gray

Most days I am not able to see

the gray so dark that the color can't reach me

the pain so big that the beauty can't get through

the pain eating up everything good

But sometimes I am able to notice

thinks that are stronger than all the pain

the sweet taste of a piece of cake

or a stranger, smiling at me from across

A little gesture that can mean so much

the only person who would notice me

the only one who can see through my pain

noticing that there's still a person in this cave

A man with beautiful hazel eyes

so much deeper than anything else

so deep I want to drown in them

and leave all my pain behind

A man who would ask me for a date

honest and simple and easy and nice

nothing threatening to his words

his expression nothing but kind

Everything inside me screaming no

telling me that its simply too much

telling me that I can't go out

that I need to stay in bed and cry

But his eyes, begging me to resist

begging me just to take this chance

begging me to try it out just for once

begging me to give life another chance

The day of the days

a beautiful night

the sky dark and warm and soft

a chill autumn breeze in the air

Cold wind blowing in my face

a thing that has always felt like a threat

suddenly it has a beautiful side, too

like a careful touch, remind me I'm still alive

His smile, lighting up the darkest street

his eyes, reflecting the moonlight in them

his hands, closing in on that thing

carefully placed in between his palms

A bouquet of sunflowers, right there in his hands

just waiting to be grabbed by me

symbolizing everything I want

all the happiness I never got to see

One flower for each one on my wall

one for each smile that I smiled

and even more flowers, there in his hands

for all the beautiful moments we'll have