Stream of Tears

You said too much this time. I was on the edge and you pushed me right over the cliff

The dam burst, tears blew

They flew right along with my love for you

We had a chance

Why am I so willing to forgive

you had my heart in a bind

In my head I am hitting rewind

I want to live in the past, in what could be back when I thought you loved me

When life seemed clear as glass

That glass I am now trying to pick up

The pieces cut and burn

The scars are everlasting

And clear like that glass is the ice in my heart

You were selfish

I was selfless

I thought I would never get over you, and how I thought these tears would never dry

But one day those tears did dry, the pain subsided, and the scars healed but are a lasting reminder

To never trust too easy and never fall too fast

Some days I wonder if your words were clear and pure

How they rushed so smoothly out of your mouth when you said

"I love you with all my heart and I will never stop" or "I would have died for you"

But I found out these words were powered by liquid spirits

I was naive because like the sea I was transparent

And you a shallow cesspool of lies

That took advantage of my overflow of emotion for you

Thanks to you I have a mustard seed size piece of my heart

That's all that's left

Because if you don't remember you took your baseball bat of hurtful words and beat my heart to dust

In loving you I tortured myself

You could have dragged me through the dirt and beaten my pride

But at the end of the day I still would have been by your side

But now that storm has passed, and the rain has washed away the pain

The window I look through is streaked with drops

But in the distance behind the fog I see a rainbow

I long to follow that rainbow

Today I broke free and I felt the rain

I felt it on my skin and from then I knew it was real