Stay Up Late

Stay up late

Wake up early

Put on mask

I push through

Hold it in

Till I can`t

Late at night

Pour a drink

Light a cigarette

Find a distraction

Will it work

Oh please work

Silence so loud

I feel surrounded

Nothing surrounds me

Minutes hours days

All blurring together

Looking for something

Don`t know who

Don`t know what

Don`t know when

Don`t know where

Don`t know how

Don`t know why

I have questions

I need answers

Please don`t go

I can`t stay

Screen time up

Still feeling low

I`m too much

I`m not enough

A constant contradiction

Somethings gotta give

Give me something

Carry this weight

With a confidence

It`s kinda funny

It`s kinda fucked

What a mentality

Still not broken

I can bend

Fall with grace

Get back up

Take deep breath

Scream into pillow

Sit in shower

Play a song

Stare at ceiling

Check my phone

Smoke another cigarette

Stay up late

Wake up early...