Stand My Ground

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Yeah my mother I really loved her

It’s fucked up she died instead

Daddy the demons were in your bed

You were the monster she wed

Always hungry for other women

Never kept us fed

Your charming smile they all misread

Told the social workers

I was a girl crying wolf

That I was the

Liar Liar

Truth is

You always lied

You were the wolf in disguise

You huffed

Puffed

Blew everyone down

Still like puppets on your string

These brainless people danced around

Why you did it?

I think I know

You never healed your woes

You gave them to us instead of a hand to hold

No wonder the world always seemed so cold.

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Yeah daddy you sure took a stand

Holding a knife to mom’s throat

Must have made you a bigger man

You lost your fucking control

Then the cops finally came

You always hated how I snitched

Told them you were to blame

I stood up to you

I’m glad someone did

You never gave us a chance for our lives to begin

It’s no surprise your name backwards spells

SINNED

The answers weren’t in that bottle

You should have looked within

You know Stephen?

You’re only son

Well you disowned him

Said he wasn’t your blood

Your distance was a blessing

He just couldn’t see

Ignorance is bliss

Brother

Believe me

You were lucky.

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Daddy

Remember that time you bruised my arm

For not getting an A?

I was just a happy girl

You twisted me up like clay

Everyone around you died

You were a supermassive black hole of lies

Somehow you just consumed and survived

Remember Christy?

Your other daughter

Led her and her mother

Like lambs to the slaughter

She came to visit us

But you threw her out

Because she stood up for me

When you smacked me about

After she left

You threw me more pain

Told me it was my fault

That I was to blame

Cut your family like a razor

You always smelled like smoke

Such a tar like flavor

In your presence people choked

I know you were a product of abuse

Still it’s no excuse

Daddy

If only it were just the booze

But it was the drugs and lies too

Loving me

Is what you didn’t do

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Thanks to you

I always hated my body in shame

Like a giant advertisement of pain

Showed me porn

Ask me what I thought?

Told me to be in Playboy

When I grew up

Guess that’s what I was taught

Raised to believe

That was the pinnacle to achieve

I know it always came as a surprise

Despite your toxicity

I always thrived.

Rose from the ashes every time

You tried to kill me inside

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Daddy

Your friends, kids, exes

They all ran away

Just like you did

When your wife

Died alone

In a nursing home everyday

She was

Dying for you

Loyal?

You said

In sickness and in health

She had nothing left to give

You stole all her wealth

You showed up though

When the lawyer was ready to divide her dough

You hated Aunt Jan

Well she’s your evil twin

You both were vultures about 30 grand

So much for fam.

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Aunt Jan

You told me when I was older

I would

Understand

The money you stole

How it would make sense then

How you needed it to pay off

Your debt

That money wasn’t yours Aunt Jan

It was mine.

Worst part is

You were already sitting on a goldmine

When you looked into my green eyes

All you saw were dollar signs

I was just 14

And I owed you rent

You know that money wasn’t well spent

Trying to start a life

I needed some help

All you cared about was

Your motherfucking self.

The court sent me to your place to stay

I thought it was a safe haven;

A place to get away

You just wore a different face

Using a vulnerable child as your prey

You played your cards

The perfect way

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Instead of us getting family counseling

Daddy

You lied to the social worker

Told her I was crazy

They locked me up instead.

You needed a scapegoat

Someone to shoulder the blame

Told me I was the problem

What I was feeling wasn't pain.

This is my confessional

To lay my past to rest

I need all this heavy weight

Off of my chest

I was let down

Whenever I looked around

Children dressed like adults

No role models to be found

But I was the one told to

Shut up and sit down.

You couldn't handle the truth

I was your

Mirror Mirror;

Your reflection

I was a

Most unwanted lesson.

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Daddy you never showed up for mom when she was alive

Yet you came to her funeral

To see her get lowered in the dirt

Just like where you put her

Your entire life

Remember daddy?

That was your fucking wife

Coward

Her biggest mistake was making you

Our home

It’s O.K.

I was there

Holding her hand

When she was alone

She was in the arms of an angel

As she passed away

It was me

See

Aunt Jan was too busy

Cleaning her room out

Before mom even took her last breath

How the fuck did you never know

The definition

Of family or respect?

You were monsters

I was just a kid

That didn’t save me from what you did

Out here like snakes in a garden

Dressed up

Playing pretend

Slithering your way

In

I even stayed to watch them zip mom

In a body bag

Wheel her away

That’s more than you could ever say.

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Don’t you worry daddy

I finally put you to rest

I buried you 6 feet under

In your Sunday best

Go ahead

Scream and shout

I don’t give a fuck

If you make a sound

Because I’m the one that matters now.

Let’s raise our glasses

To your ashes

This is your eulogy

I’m making a toast

Now all you got is ghosts

Like it or not

Watch me rise up to the top

All your baggage I got to drop

I can’t take you with me Daddy

This mountain is too steep

These wounds last forever

You cut me too deep

Your secrets I won’t keep

Now I lay you down to sleep

I pray for hell your soul to keep

If you die before I wake

Then good riddance to you

You were full of hate

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.

Daddy

You stood so tall

Funny thing is

You were the biggest victim of us all

I’m done being a victim

Done playing your game

I’m through

I pass that heavy burden back to you

You tried to cage me like a bird

But I bet now my voice is finally heard

You got what you deserved

I’ll be the flowers that grow from your grave

Sorry that you weren’t strong enough

I was always brave

Goodbye to yesterday

Now Mandy’s saved

Stand my ground?

Well look at me now Daddy

Aren’t you proud?

I was lost

Now I’m found.