Splitting Up

I can't believe you'd leave me like this.

Looking back on it all, I am left saying to myself:

The fit just wasn't right.

Everything happens for a reason -

I'll be fine.

Then I see you out and about;

My heart feels like it will burst.

I cry.

I'm on my own now,

Trying to grow.

I am

Devastated.

But you seem

Elated.

For the first time in a long time I am

Feeling so lost.

It's scary

Being alone,

How much I miss

The thought of you always next to me.

My heart stings to remember

The days when we were together -

I was at peace.

But the day we split up

I was heartbroken.

I can't help it.

I need time.

If only

Things were how they were

When we were together

A long time ago…

I lost myself

Since you've been gone.

I'm not the me you used to love -

Looking in the mirror -

Someone entirely different.

I am now

Just a shell.

I used to be

So in love with life.

I'm learning that joy will prevail.

Someday.

Just

Not

Now.

I need to put my pieces back together.

But

I really did love you.

I assure you.

You said you loved me more than anything else.

I knew it was a lie when

You told me, with you,

I can finally find my happiness.