Spinning out

Silence blanketing my ride home in the back of someone else's car

Pretending it doesn't hurt that you live so close to my favorite bar

I never see you around

I know you're never down here

This would be so much easier

If you never made a sound

But you did so now I'm stuck here waiting

Hot tears and screaming

Silently bleeding out

You're not making this easy

This was supposed to be easy

Could you just man up and tell me that it's over

Whispers so loud amongst my family and friends together

With how I spoke of you, I'm sure they thought maybe we'd want forever

But no, of course not that's not what we agreed

Every night I lay awake because of you I get no sleep

So I'll just take an uber

I hate your face and the way you never say my name

And how we only ever meet at your place

You let me spin and spin

So much I get sick of your shit

Then you call me again and I'm not over it

I feel so comfortable in this misery I've created

So comfortable in this silence

In the back seat of a strangers car

They turn to look at me and ask

"How far?"