Sorry I took so long to let go

The pain I left inside of me

Now resides in you

I’d love to love you deeper

In fact I’m dying too

But it’s hard due to the verbal abuse I’ve prescribed you to

Now you don’t feel safe and you’ve been lied to

I said I’d work on my healing

Instead I’m chasing the feeling of no feeling

With substances that keep me from thinking

All the while our ship is sinking

And you’ve stopped believing in me

Now I grieve me

A version of me that needed completing

I’ve abandoned the growth I needed

And just proceeded with barely breathing

Because I’ve lost you

There is no reason