Sometimes

Sometimes...

Sometimes I just wanna burst into tears

For myself

For others

For the past

For the future

For what I know

And what I don’t

Sometimes I just wanna scream

For my fears

For my feelings

For feelings of others

For what’s out of my control

For what is mine to control

For my impulses

Sometimes I want blood

Figuratively

Literally

My own

Others

To hold life in my control

To stop yearning for chaos n blood

Sometimes I don’t wanna see

To see what’s been done

To see what hasn’t

To see what I want

To see what I don’t

To see others as they are

To see too much

Sometimes I wanna burst into tears

I want to be normal

To not see and feel as I do

To not crave what I crave

I want to stop seeing what I see

I want to sleep and be just as everyone else

I don’t want to feed to feel

I don’t want to become the monster I’ve been before.