Something Stupid

I saw you today

First time in four years

Our eyes met

And my heart skipped a beat

I couldn't breathe

My whole body began to vibrate

It was fear

Maybe something else

Something I haven't felt

Since the last time I saw you

Something I thought left

When I did

I felt like crying

I felt panicked

I felt nauseous

I felt... excited?

I should be scared of you

I was scared of you

But now I'm not sure

And that scares me

I wanted to hug you

No

I wanted you to hug me

Even after everything you've done

I wanted you to run to me

Wrap me in your arms

And apologize

Say you miss me like I miss you

You broke my soul

And shattered my spirit

But do you wanna know something stupid?

I still love you