Soldier Sworn to Secrecy

What did you achieve

being rude to me

all my life

since I was born

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You were putting my body upside down

trying to flow the blood

into my brain

being convinced that it makes me smarter

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You were beating me on the face

on my spectacles costing fortune

My thighs were bruised and violet

after your hand smashed on them

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You were saying:

“I’ll beat you but it’s not enough

that’s why I have to repeat that

to stick in your mind

that you’re a bad girl

when you’ll be older

and will be remember it

forever

how the things were indeed”

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But that was only your point of view

of me taking first steps

in telling you what matters to me

You never listen

neither then, nor now, nor in the future

Not remembering what you had done

to your own daughter

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When I grew up, I thought you would change

into a loving parent

supporting the only child

but I wasn’t the only one anymore

So, you focused on your best and brightest

young and beautiful

and I was already a dirty carpet

for you

unscrupulous

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You wanted me to die, to deprecate, to devastate

my body and soul

but we were never square

as I was born to decay there

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in your house full of flies

Now I’m reborn in the unusual shape

to fight for my life

like a soldier you always wanted me to be

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fledged in a female frock

the war is still going on

far from the fiendish foe

never knowing what’s really going on

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23 May 2021

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