So I Say I Am Resilient

The colors that resonate haunt me like the strongest perfume

The colors that fill the room entice me with their meaningful hues

They bring back the worst memories, but give me the strength to defeat

I know those hurtful words aren’t true

I’ve had to relax in hell and tip toe on creaking floors to believe

I am resilient enough to leave

So I say that blue is intuitively wrong

I feel deep down my pain

Yet it’s wrong to say I’m the one to blame

So I say that blue is intuitively wrong

Because I am resilient enough to live another day

So I say that pink is the love I’ll always break

Loving my enemies is a hard promise to keep

It aches to love those who have deceived me

So I say that pink is the love I’ll always break

But I am resilient, so I continue to mend this hate

So I say that purple is more of a simmered pain

My fears rushing through my veins

Will I ever be enough? Do I deserve to stay?

So I say that purple is more of a simmered pain

I am resilient, and I continue to stand for a flushed face

The colors that resonate haunt me like the strongest perfume

I am resilient, and I will not stand behind you

Blue, pink, and purple

They’re intuitively wrong, a love that breaks, and a simmered pain

But they’ve only made me stronger

And now I know

So I say I am resilient