So Empty It Hurts
From my in progress collection “Reclamation”
I get dizzy when I stand up
I feel weak all the time
I am nauseous every day
—
But I’ve barely eaten anything
I think with a smile
—
This is better than feeling so big
I could explode
—
Throwing up because my stomach
has started to eat itself
—
This is better, it means
my body is getting smaller
—
Almost passing out multiple times a day
just from standing up
—
is just a side effect
of trying to be skinny
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Trust me, it’ll all be worth it
I unfortunately think
as my stomach pulls in on itself
—
crying for me to give it something
anything
just to keep me alive
About the Creator
Isabella Walker
I'm trying my best so if you're reading this, thank you! (Most of these pieces I will be revising and editing throughout this process, keep coming back for updated pieces!!)
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Comments (3)
I make sure I drink ensure of vitamins if my stomach is not working as it should. Sometimes we are so focus on helping others we forgot self care. Sending healing hugs 🫂
I remember this feeling. It's something I'm still working through myself. That feeling where you're like, "no one will EVER call me fat again." That played in my head every time my stomach growled. Some days, I think I'm perfectly healed from it. The thoughts that go through my head when I walk past a mirror always prove me wrong. I'm so glad you're healing 🩷 We all deserve to eat... Even if our brain is telling us ugly things about ourselves.
Damn Isabella. This was a hard read. Important though, but nevertheless hard. I am glad you are working through things, and my heart goes out to you. To be clear, too, it was hard because it was written so beautifully brutally honest, with a poetic elegance.