Smile again.

Smile Again

Lick my wounds

The day you left

Was the day I died.

You said goodbye so suddenly.

Too quickly for me.

I think you wouldn't have left so quickly had you known.

That I couldn’t make it on my own, every face card shown.

After Summer it will have been two years.

Where did all that time go?

I don’t know.

Ever since I was a kid, you’ve picked me up and dusted me off.

Keep it moving, keep it going, stay strong.

Will I ever be happy and able to truly laugh and smile again?

Or prepare for yet another devastating blow?

I don’t know where you’ve gone.

As you, I am not catholic or believe in your god or heaven.

Where are you?

I know you’re smiling at us.

I’m sure you’ve already seen I am making a journey soon.

I’ve learned my lessons.

I need this.

My heart and soul need this,

I can’t be here anymore.

I can’t be in the cold.

Not with what you would call “normality”

Not my normal.

Basically not just me.

I want to heal my wounds,

And I want to truly smile and laugh again.

-ej