Sick of The Toxicity

it follows you

no matter how many encounters

you've had in the past

or who you've known

even if you gain from experience and

learn how to avoid them for your future

it follows you

the pain

the attitudes

the behaviors

they say to just move on

they say to just forget and let go

but how is it

that I can just forget and let go

if I constantly end up

in the exact same situation

as before

how is it

that I can just move on

when different people

treat me exactly like the last

I just want to be free

I just want it to be over with

I just want to be able to

live a life

where I can trust those

who enter it

I want to be able to

befriend those

without fear of what's to come

I want to stop being so afraid

of what's next

I want the healthy lifestyle

that you see on the screen

or read on paper

I want that

not this

I want the happiness

the trust

the ability to smile

because of those I let in

I want to be able to move on

to forget the past

and let it go

I want to use my past experiences

to avoid them in my future

but

it follows you

it haunts you

it sticks to you like glue

it's always there

mocking

laughing

smiling

it follows you

no matter how hard

you try to leave it behind