Fear
Pain
Despair
Melting like butter in the hot summer sun
Flowing like lava
The tide is strong
No stopping it
It begins its overrun
Why does this happen
Why am I not normal
Why can’t this be controlled
The feelings build up
Then they overflow
Fear
Pain
Despair
Once more
The shame rises
Shame of it all
Seeing this is all the same thing
It's the fears of a lifetime
A view of the world from pain,
Shame and fear are the wardens
It's the smallest life
The feelings of a time, emotionally undefined
The child is scared
The adult confused
Why is this
Why can't I rationalise
Because you need to hide
The emotions rise
Fear
Pain
Despair
And shame
I want to die
No
I want to be free
Free from the pain
The darkness
The fears
The fears
Oh The fears
They are the masters of this life
Afraid of everything
Everyone
If only there were a spark of courage to find
The shame of the moment
Enough to keep you hidden at home
Each time there is a reaction
A new level rises up
Til the day
You realise
You're a hermit living alone
The emotions flood
The reactions real
Hope and light
Disappear
Were they ever really here
Dawn arrives with a different view
A glimmer of hope
The inner child renewed
Miracles can happen
Emotions may calm
Shame even hides away
Until the next time it rises up
Until the look
The feeling
Or you open the door.
Fear is a constant companion
I dare not share
Put on a brave face
Look no one in the eye
Else you turn and run
Lets hide
Let's be the hermit and hideaway once more
No one will miss me
No one will care
About the Creator
Donna Morgan
I am a lover of the mystical the magical and the spiritual.
I write to help others awaken to their awareness of self by interpreting feelings or deeper insights others may not know how to voice
I love to write it is my soul's work.
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