Shadow of Doubt

when my eyes first saw you, you stole my soul

I didn’t want this, I wanted to be whole :(

There’s only so long before this will go south

Of here is comes the shadow of doubt

I pulled myself back, I protected my heart

Then next thing I know I’m back where I started

Texting you everything I promised myself

I’d keep in my head and never let out

I’m gonna be honest so there is no doubt

Honest with you, honest without

The passion, the fire, the magnetic pull

If you wanted you explore this

You’d be truthful and stop feeding me bull..sh

You’d keep all the promises made for me and you..

Is it too much to ask for communication and a phone call or 2?

I’m gonna be honest so you have no doubt

I really don’t know how to let all this out

My expectations are way too high

I made promises to myself…

Cross my heart and hope to die

I was straightforward from the start

I don’t do secrets, lies, or the confusion

I don’t entertain little boys who make me cry

I am not a little girl baby I am a woman

I have you the chances you asked for

Yes “s” as in PLURAL

even let you come over and touch my pearl

But reality is this is and illusion

An emotional roller coaster and it’s causing delusion

I feel like an option, I’m too needy for you

You bring me so high, then shoot me down

Pew, pew, pew

Straight through my heart and all that I’ve told you

Should have listened to me and padlocked my guard