Serial Dater

My dating life is a series of mistakes

I lose dates like I lose money

Like the girl who wore my t-shirt

The one I can no longer wear

I’m stuck with a hole in my pocket

And I don’t know how to fix it

No matter how I try to change myself

They keep slipping through the hole

Every time is different, but always ends the same

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I don’t know how to date.

How to be someone’s maybe.

I don’t like how it feels.

It’s like walking around in ragged clothes

Holes everywhere

Threatening to expose me

Helplessly waiting for them to drop

To leave me like they always do

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I blame myself mostly.

Not knowing what to say or how to act

I feel like an imposter

I don’t want to be good at dating

But I need to be

I’d like to break the cycle of first dates

To be the man who steals a kiss

Not the man thinks about the one he missed

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They slip through my fingers like the hole in my pocket

Like a ragged pair of jeans that almost look good but don’t feel right

There’s an assuredness that’s lacking

A confidence that only comes from positive experience

But how do I find confidence in clothes full of holes

Like the ones she made when she left

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They all leave

Taking pieces of me with them

Leaving me here all ragged

Waiting for someone to sew me back together

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