These eyes,
I cannot control–
There I go...
falling for a face that belongs to a heart I do not know‐
If only, so and so knew of the filth in mine...
what wealth of evil I possess-
Take a look at my heart and you'll only see black,
take a trip through my mind and you'll only see the same.
Lust–
It may not be my ugliest, but
it certainly comes close‐
almost, as close as I've come to making this dangerous wish...
again, but‐
I dare not
seek that my sight may go
and ask to only see the color black
since I know,
I may not see my sin go with, but
stand right before my face,
taunting my colorless eyes
mocking my burning mind
singing its Opera of Laughter–
to the very lust I wish I could rip from my being.
I can see what I want, but
I do not want what I see‐
I want to see, but
I do not want to see what I want.
No more, do I wish to continue Drawing Circles...
I know, that there is no coming back from the color black in this context I speak, but
to not see...
and not be seen...
is certainly, a dangerous dream from which I may not awake, so...
I dare not
wish that my sight may be something to take
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