Secrets To Die With

I once wished you knew,

but I'm glad that wish never came true...

this truth I hide is the very same I feel can never tell you‐

neither anyone else...

even myself, I tend to lie to,

when it comes to this, that is.

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You know what I like...

and although it was you I described,

of course, I held back‐

to keep out of the light,

something I may or may not have wanted to take back,

I've decided that this will join my list of secrets to die with.

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This area of my heart and mind

is for the knowledge of God, and myself‐

and because this stays on my heart and mind, I have but no choice

to use this art of mine to vent all I feel I can't voice‐

I almost wish that I could axe this feeling and all that it is,

but I need not add to my list of Dangerous Wishes.

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I suppose for the sake of my humanity I ought to be more careful with my spoken desires...

and I suppose that, for the sake of my sanity I should watch what thoughts grow into desires‐

I almost hate to think that you are all I've ever wanted, in regards to this...

but I can't blame myself for not knowing someone like you could exist, until recently that is‐

of course there are other notions I house that are kept from the public, but...

I've decided that, this secret I will bring with me to my grave,

since it might just be this secret that has already dug it.

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If the day comes that you put these puzzle pieces together,

I hope that by then this interest I have that is, in and for you...

will by simply a memory to be kept buried forever‐

I've learned to love, but not for me,

and I suppose neither for us‐

I guess that along this line of time

the thought of us will at its best be a secret for me to die with.

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