Schizophrenia

I’m a little uncomfortable at first,

sitting in the corner alone,

Nose leaking mucus,

I heard this,

“Why you don’t you come here and tell me how much it hurts,”

that’s another bird,

Lost in deception it feels like my mind don’t work,

The way I’m using my tongue I’ma need another nurse,

“It’s time to take your medicine.”

Bee sting,

That’s another needle,

Eagle eye,

That’s another evil,

Why she talking like she don’t need you,

I can hear the crows sing,

“She’ll leave you stray you don’t play safe”

Teary eyed plus I’m seeing things,

If she a dove she got angel wings.

I’m waking up every morning reading Quran Verses,

Lord lift these curses,

on my knees head down for prayer,

Asalamalicem,

I’ll return back to my maker.

Please save him!

Satans getting busy I’m hearing noises,

Feels like everyone around me is having secret conversations,

Underneath they breath,

They’re constantly whispering.

Don’t tell me you ain’t say that when I heard you said it,

Don’t tell me you ain’t did what you did cause I know I saw it,

Tough,

Demons laughing at me,

Alone at night one eye open there’s another body in here I can feel it breathing on me,

Sweating,

It’s hot in here but my body is shaking,

My teeth chattering,

Shhhh quiet,

I can hear someone coming.

I got good intentions but suicidal visions,

My wrist slit,

Blood leaking out my body,

Now Im stuck watching my own death movie.

R.I.P to this creature,

My brain was up all night snapshotting pictures,

Praise be to god,

Lift these curses,

God hear me now,

Can’t talk to my lady without hearing 5 voices,

Can’t answer the phone,

Echoes of little kids counting,

Plus a ringing in my ear.

Can’t hold my spit I’m feeling sick,

If my death is coming,

God make it quick!

Can’t eat a meal without thinking of throwing up,

Now everywhere I go I’m holding my stomach,

If I’ma cat I’m down to my last life,

Candle light laminates sexual pleasures tonight,

With side of cat nip,

Holding you in my arms the right grip,

I wish for peace again,

I pray to god I don’t repeat the same sin.