Scared Straight!!!

-Woke up in a scary place, warm tears already flowing down my face

-Suddenly back to a place, in my childhood where I don’t feel safe

-Seeing my father with disappointment & fury, splashed across his face

-I couldn’t understand why, too young at the time to even try

-So, all I could do was cry as he manhandled me back to our place, berating me publicly, I wanted to die

-Once at our house, like a small mouse surrounded by large cats & traps, my senses & fears heightened

-My father charges towards me, belt in hand & enraged

-But momma saves the day when she swiftly intervenes to engage

-Sending me to my room, protecting me from doom, momma inquiries about the root of this random gloom

-Ear firmly on the door, awaiting the reason I made him sore

-Only to hear he was peeved, after spotting me outside playing “too femininely”

-Born a male, my feminine energy was unspoken consent for others to cause me traumatizing hell

-But this is my father, so I’m confused, isn't his love is supposed to be unconditional & prevail?

-I wonder if he ever realized his actions that night caused our bond to fail

-Due to him wanting to strip my identity by beating out my femininity

-Realizing to the keep peace I had to Pinocchio & “be a real boy”, so that became my ploy

-But u see what happens to ploys, because only for so long can u mask realness & joy

-It’s comical now that I'm grown, living my truth & on my own, my father pleads for space in my life

-If only he had this same energy that dreadful night, I’d gladly make time instead of being “too busy” in my feminine life

The End

By: Cocoa Chadae