Saudade

Saudade

(31°21” S, 72°26”W)

We’ve seen the horizon and it’s always the same

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Of course, I was drowning

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Are there different tides inside tedium?

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For three hours we were living in the same day

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Today just a bit of a nuisance

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There are birds in the middle of the ocean

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I read this all to you in your sleep

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The expressions on their beaks feel familiar

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How beautiful, rippling I whisper

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You called me dumb because water is the same everywhere

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It’s more than beauty the way our bodies are connected

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The rolling equal in all corners of the world

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Each of our fingers, wrists, and elbows

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We are not only together when we are together

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I distract myself immediately. I can explain

lust straightforwardly but I missed the fire

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At anchor somewhere off Chile we took a launch to shore

I did not answer when the trip flew by looking

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There has been so much I don’t feel due to the earthquakes

Can you forgive me for enjoying no romance

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Wanting absorption of the hip Sometimes I look back and feel something

I have finally gotten resolution Little boats strategically placed, firing off

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The same fireworks I watched From the highest point of our anchorage

Battling between two extremes Several at once, and not one stopping

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I was not filled by any emotion I just watched the flames.

note: the line “I can explain lust straightforwardly but I missed the fire” is from Simple Colonial Encounters by Maged Zaher