Run

RUN

I wanna run far from here.

I wanna run far from my mind, far from what’s inside.

I wanna run away and never come back I want run far away from the idea of doing some crack.

RUN

I want to escape this situation I want to go into hibernation.

I want to run fast,I want to run to the other side of the world. I want to run away we’re people can’t see me. I want to run away so that I can just let my thoughts be.

Run

I want to hide from myself I want to hide from others. I want to bury my head in my bed and I want to sleep the night.

My head is pounding and spinning I want out I don’t want to feel like I constantly need to drink the night away. Why the fuck do I feel sad,angry and mad? Why the hell do I want to go to bed and it’s only 5 o’clock on a Tuesday?

Where are you mom? You’re the person I need right now. Open your arms let me in, why whenever something goes wrong I turn to you when you’re not even here?

Why do I crave to be an apart of your life? Why do I hurt myself over and over by the thought you’re going to show up?

Ahhhhhhhhh I want to scream and shout and let it all out. I want to run run run run from my life run from the idea of being hurt by my life…..

My voice is barley here, my mind already checked out and is surfing the ocean in my brain…. Here I’m left with dissociation.

I guess this is it for now please god just bring your fist to my head and say pow 💥