Rid of You

Sometimes I forget how you treated me

There’s no lies or regrets

Just a vacant scene

You’re not my next

She says, quit begging me

She’s too perplexed with what manipulation brings

Stop having sex

Take control of me

You’re not the best

But don’t let me leave

Cloaked in black dress

Now I know what funeral means

Grieving your ex

Dead like the sea

Anger I dread

Please stop scaring me

Leaving my head

With all this anxiety

You were never my friend

Used my jealously

To take it out on my trust

Like you meant to be

Why are you caught on her petty rituals?

Why did you love such a sick individual?

Someone who uses you for her benefit

Symbiosis would never fit

Suck out her venom for the hell of it

She comes back seldom for a little bit

But once a mishap came about

You were crying, screaming, wishing she never figured it out

Keep it in your mind that she’s the devils spawn

Don’t let your mind dwell on the good for too long

There was a reason you left her in the dust

The feelings she gave you weren’t enough

Goodbye little birdy singing to the sunshine

Break your neck so I never hear it another time

Your melody upsets the rhythm of mine

Always has, always will,

You were just my crime

Left me in your jail

That’s the bottom line

With you I’ll always fail

Never be your great divine

Guess I’ll just set sail

Act like you were never mine

Tattooed “you are so much more”

On my skin in such sublime

I believed you then

But not the context of the line

I am not so much more than I thought I was

...I am so much more than you.

Hell, why I ever let you belittle me

I never knew

Just glad you didn’t get rid of me

I got rid of you

All the gifts you’ve given me

The best one was the truth

You never truly loved me

You used me because I loved you

You never really wanted me

But you felt good when I wanted you

So you did what you had to do to not get me to leave

And that was never taking the first steps

I started the marathon

I ran

Still upset

But I’m the one who realized my worth

I’m the one who pulled out stronger first

I’m the one who didn’t need anybody to fix my hurt

I’m the one who did it on my own, and that’s how I know

You were never who I deserved