Restless

Restless but yet not moving Sleeping but actually awake running emotions through a vast emptiness. I sit day in and day out contemplating the explanations of the undefined unexplained life that lies before me. Finding a way through the depths of my crazy mind I find myself sitting upon a jagged rock looking down into my soul that is bound my the ropes of confusion. Confusion I say, what may this word, nay figuratively pro founding meaning, have to do with any way that i feel right now.

I see her eyes when I shut mine, looking back through the blackness of night that seems to over ride my vision when I sleep. WAKEUP! that's what I hear when I see the vision of her in my mind. Take your wings and soar beyond the valleys and hill tops that barricade your body. I am here for you is what I hear from her lips like a sword piercing my ear drums, alerting me that upon this sound I shall be awake.

But once again I'm restless, but not moving. How can I be restless but not move or sleeping but yet awake. Can this vision of my soul being trapped in an endless flight towards the ground be what is keeping me awake? I love her...does she know it? Does she sit and wonder what I am doing when she is not hearing my voice whisper into her ears?

What does it mean to be restless.....to me its just a meaning, a word, a figure of speech. Does it have a true meaning for someone such as myself? Nor I can think of what this may be. But yet I am restless....not moving, but lying....lying here decaying. My heart beating for her, hoping not to lose another person in my life.