Rent Free

there you are

standing right in front of me,

except you aren't.

i can see you just as i remembered;

the way you always styled your hair.

the tank top you always wore.

the cologne that you surrounded yourself around..

that same scent that would cloud me every time we were together.

hell,

i can still hear your voice clear as day

all these years later.

why?

why do you still remain so clear in my mind?

why do i still miss you every damn day?

why you?

all you've caused was pain

and destruction,

yet..

in my mind,

you were perfect.

you were my best friend.

you were the one person I could always count on

to keep me laughing

when I needed to put on a smile.

we were inseparable,

yet unhealthy.

we were fantastic,

yet toxic.

the memories we once shared are behind us now,

yet..

here you are.

standing right in front of me,

looking the way i've always remembered you to look.

although i'm unsure whether or not

i want you to fade away,

along with all the other forgotten memories in the back of my mind,

but i kind of hope you stay with me..

forever.

we were inseparable.

we were fantastic.

we were best friends.