Remember Why You Started

When you can’t fall asleep next to your lover because a war rages inside of you…

Not one that they’ve placed there but a war you’ve siloed into.

Silo?

Silo: to isolate someone or something in a way that hinders communication and cooperation with others

I didn’t know what that word meant before my pen hit paper

but I knew it was right

Sometimes I can’t think at all

tears and circles inside

until I write.

Making much out of nothing it seems

Or looking closer at everything.

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What is a day gone smooth? Is it without upset? Is it without grief?

Do you really seek that which is easy?

or do you seek the seamless integration of wisdom

to hold upset and grief in stride

To pause where there need be rest.

To ask for guidance.

To cry

at a place where motion is without direction

Turn the map for a new perspective

Where is home?

Home is in this body

Home is in the grand body, Mother

Home is being a steward of the holy land that is this Earth

Home is where we bring love

Home is where we tend it

Home is where we create space

The space to surrender.

The surrender to full life,

To the power of small

To the current that carries

The surrender to creation

We were born of surrender

Of sweet soil to solid seeds

Of sand in silent devotion to unsound sea

Of mothers,

Holding soft seeds in softening bodies

Of the daughters that carry

Of the women that see

We were born of forgiveness

But what does that mean?

Forgiveness is surrendering to the love that will always be

And trust,

Love will always be.

It will roll at our feet and carry us when in need

It will dance and rest inside of our breath

In the marrow of bones, in the movement of flesh

Love will not wait for you to open your heart—

It reaches right past chest and opens it for you

Just as roads curve and slice through mountainsides;

Love wraps around you with its warm embrace

Destroying walls and barriers with utmost grace

Just as honey melts into warm, fresh bread

As carefully as silk scarf tied about your head

Just as ocean flows around your form

Return to the love from which you were born