Reflection Inspection

pain becomes pleasure which morphs into art

only speak when you’re spoken to

sit up straight, don’t twiddle your feet

don’t you get up in grown folks' business

boy i’m telling you

i will smack the dog shit out of you

don’t you get up from that seat

silence became the loudest voice in the room

when i was unable to say the words

i decided to let the arts tell my story

when i lacked the confidence to do it

i let the emotions resonate and simmer away

because the universe knows that i could no longer hold it back

i been stopping the flow of my tears

i been going through a lot of eighths

i been around the ol’ dusty old road and back a couple times

heartbreak and empty pockets made me turn my pain into profit

i sold you honesty

i sold you vigor

i sold you knowledge

i let the truth speak

i sold you a full package

heard you didn’t receive it

your dissonance kills moods faster than roaches hit by spray

maybe i could play roulette with your gun

see if i could fetch the bullet before it kills me first

thoughts of suicide exiled me to rock bottom

i’m too occupied with resistance

fighting this battle in myself

war that a guy like me is not safe from

i feel lonely, i know i’m not alone

i feel lonely, i know i’m not alone

i feel lonely, i know i’m not alone

i just don’t know

i just can’t tell

i just don’t care