Redefining loneliness

each day that makes me feel uncomfortable

Unveiling the lost power of our golden & silver verse, like Poe’s soft melancholy

each day that passes through, I’m marked up in heavy sludge,

And it’s darker than that, isn’t it?

I want to redefine loneliness

Because it’s so terrifying to know you’re so close, but I can’t reach you

I want to redefine it, but I still think you’re here, so how can I feel like there’s a drowning thing inside of me

Tearing apart my dark guts inside?

Slowly, I’m

Eviserated

Like a gutted ancient fish, drying out on the earth, the gills tempting to sustain the poison air.

Of course, if your definition is not like mine,

I’d only wish we could redefine it together.

But instead, I’ll give you the sun, sunshine; because I’ll suck in my loneliness and everything dark just so you’ll have the light.