It’s hard to think
Let alone sleep, caught in my dreams
Someone to hold
As nights grow cold
In deep, dark, sleep
The love I gave, been unreturned
So, I felt burned
I pride myself
For giving help
When I’m in need
Yet, I could lose somebody
Yeah, I could lose somebody
That cares for Meee!
***
I’m just in my head
Always filled with dread
About my days.
I try to love
My very self
And no one else.
If I can’t love my Bod-Ay!
If I can’t love my Bod-Ay!
Then who would love MEEE!
***
So when I made a choice
In search of my own voice
What did I see?
I saw my meager frame
All myself to blame
No one else but Meee…
And so I HURT somebod-Ay!
Yeah, I hurt somebod-Ay!
And that was Meee!
***
I always wanted love
The more I chased it shoved
Away from Meee…
If fate could be so cruel
Depressing thoughts it ruled
Sending me to sleep…
It killed my own outside growth…
Of somebody that I should love most…
And that person was Meee!!!
***
For I was too afraid
To make the proper change
I want for Meeee…
But now I have to brave
All these brutal waves
Of my mind’s seas…
I could’ve drowned SomeBod-Ay!
I could’ve drowned SomeBod-Ay!
And I couldn’t BREATHE!!!
***
Alone in my brain
I thought I’ve gone insane
But I just weeped.
Neurochemicals
Putting Limitals
The Poison Seeped…
My brain just floated…
My brain just floated…
In depression DRINK!!!
***
I locked myself in a dark room, with my own thoughts
I talked myself through my own pride and faults
In the dark I floated…
In the dark I floated…
In a tank of salt!!!
But from on there I was not scared to be alone.
It’s been that way since I’ve grown and left from home.
I’ve got some more better headspace.
The whole world’s my own place-
Meant for Me to Grow!
***
Upon the land
With my own hands
The seeds I’ve sown…
To become the man
That I wish
So that I grow.
My own dreams are ComIng…
My own dreams are ComIng…
To be made TrUe!
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Deep 🙏🫥But Somehow through the process of becoming our higher selves we tend to feel more pain than we ever persisted!
Oh wow, this was a really personal piece and I appreciated your realness. Hopefully we keep learning from our successes and failures in life, moving forward. So glad this ended with positivity. Great work :)