Random Midnight Thoughts

I imagined myself what it would have been like if I was born in a different decade or a different body. What would it have been like if I didn't exist? As to how different this movie would be. Would there be someone else in the cast portraying the person who I would have been, but differently?

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think what other alternative world out there has a better life than me, or who has it worse. What alternative world is dating my celebrity crush during this exact time as I write this?

Genuinely, there has to be alternative worlds out there. The universe is infinite, and we don't know what else is out there. All we know are planets and stars, or milky ways, and nothing else. This isn't no night time thought, this is something that has to be a fact. However, no one can actually confirm it until.......I'm not sure. The TV show Supernatural, did have an episode of alternative worlds/realities. And it makes sense, there isn't anything confusing about what is out there.

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There are times in which I don't feel that I am doing anything that is successful. I have so many hobbies, that the things I have a passion about, just seem........"normal."

It is not as if I was depressed. Every teen spends their teenage years different. I just don't seem to understand mine at all. And this is not like "I'm not like the rest" type of thing.

I just haven't really understood what I want to do in life, even as a child. All I have wanted was to break out of this stereotype that Mexicans are not capable of having this amazing life or barely get to graduate from College. I want to give my family the life they always wanted...........

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Going back to alternative realities. I really wonder what type of alternative reality is the best to live in. Like what type of alternative reality has every single person living their best life.

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This reminds me of a freestyle poem. Anything can be written, and it will still have a meaning. Not everything that is being written here has a big meaning to me. Only the one about hobbies. The rest........they are just thoughts that come to me and I wrote them down.

Do they sound upsetting? Is there anger? Happiness?

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At this point I'm not sure what I'm writing, so I guess this is the end of random thoughts. A diary in which anyone can read what goes on in my brain at night. I'll consider this a freestyle poem, it's short, simple, and if you over think about this, there's a different meaning for each person.