Rainbow Baby

I had a dream…

A twisted nightmare

A nightmare where the doctor told us

Our son was no more

A scene, once serene with dreams

Had screams

Standing in a downpour

Fully drenched in emotions

You screamed to the skies for answers

My hand slipped from yours

And everything changed us

Me pleading for an understanding

You heavy from the regret drowning you

Us both unable to stop the spinning

I tried to cover you from the storm

I tried so hard to get back to your touch

But, my legs were swept from under me

Winds anchored me down on my knees

And I lost my voice trying to reach you

The sun vanished

Hopelessness enclosed us

No more control in sight

We watched what we built be carried away

And all we had left was time

Time to burst all on our own

Bury ourselves and pray for rebirth

We never in life felt so weak

So crippled from expectations

Every step felt impenetrable

Veering too far away to reconnect

Hoping that somehow this storm passes

Somehow I can find the right words

Somehow I can get back to you

Somehow we can try again

Somehow we can pick up where we let go

Boom…

Thunder crashes…

I violently wake from this nightmare,

And woke you

Kissed your cheek

Rubbed your belly

And said I’m sorry…

Thankful that I found my way back to you through this storm

And counted down the days until we finally can see our rainbow…