Precipitate

For years, I tried to reason with

the feelings deep inside.

I bargained with my inner-self,

not truly knowing why.

Put on an act, I stepped on stage,

solely when outside,

embarrassed with a fearful walk,

and scared for my dear life.

Looks and smirks I sometimes got,

when I walked into class,

crippling all I had to give,

shattering like fine glass.

Feeling blue I sheltered to,

a place deep in my head,

not understanding why the hate,

I wanted love instead.

But time has healed the emptiness,

and questioning the why's,

instead I grew to love myself,

and all the reasons I,

could give this world

my truest self,

ignoring all the lies,

I felt so liberated,

and alive for the first time.