I look back on who I once was.
It is very different from who I am today.
I am grateful for all the lessons learned.
To which I use to build my foundation.
A wise mind is aware it knows nothing.
The vast endlessness of knowledge and lessons to learn.
Now, I move forth, into the unknown.
The power is held in knowing I control only myself.
Here I go, despite fear, and failure.
Living, because no one makes it out alive.
What is life worth, if I am not willing to do what it takes to make it worth living?
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Irreversible Poet
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Irreversible Poet
I choose understanding above all else, above fear, above hate. No human is born evil.
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"You alone choose ultimately where fate will take you; hold your pen proud, don’t allow others to hold it and write for you.”
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