Phases

Every day I wake up its the same,

You all say its a phase,

Like its only been like this a matter of days,

I limp through these days, months, years in some sort of numbing haze,

I need to be believed, I crave to feel okay,

I have to start wanting to live through the day,

Struggling to stay straight, I'm running into a breakdown,

I'm a whore, I'm a freak, I'm insane,

How can I escape when I'm jumping into my own grave, fanning my own flames,

I'm the ultimate mess, falling in love with you while you tear me up,

I'm a whore, I'm a freak, I'm insane.

You all say its a phase,

A phase where all I feel are the high lows or absolute rage,

How can this even make sense, how can I keep living I lie,

I stitch up a smile, say everything is fine,

But I can't be keep trying,

I can't keep myself wrapped up inside this lie .

Struggling to stay straight, I'm running into a breakdown,

I'm a whore, I'm a freak, I'm insane,

How can I escape when I'm jumping into my own grave, fanning my own flames,

I'm the ultimate mess, falling in love with you while you tear me up,

I'm a whore, I'm a freak, I'm insane.

I need the only way out, I crave the release,

You all say its a phase,

But I've had fucking enough, it's time to face,

These facts that I will never get better, let's be fucking real,

I am slowly dying from all these wounds that won't heal,

Infected, rotten from the inside out, and you still want me to stay,

You still all say its a phase, but we all know that it's best if I disappear and pass the fuck away.