part 3

as I suffer inside

on the outside my smile becomes even bigger

so I can appear to others that whilst i am broken inside

I am still smiling on the outside

conceal .

And after weeks of morning this relationship I came to the realisation that I needed me a bit more than he ever deserved

I eat my dinner with loneliness and sadness

beneath my smile is the comfort of my betrayal

I bury myself in fake smiles and force laughter because I’m afraid of my own emotional truth

He left me alone forever that the only company I have on my thoughts and feelings