Only in dreams

Knowing you more

made me incapable to love

so I loved you in my dreams.

When I would reach for you

but couldn't touch

I held you in my dreams.

When you would hold my hand

and caress my hair but I snapped away,

I apologized in my dreams.

I loved you and I missed you

for all of it

I cried in my dreams.

How is it so

I felt closer to you when asleep

Then ever awake in your arms.